Time flies..

I'm sorry I haven't been writing here as regularly as I had planned to, things have been pretty crazy around here! You are growing so fast, and doing so much! You giggle now, still waiting for real belly laughs (tho I think you have a couple times, it isn't regular yet) you have a tickle spot right in your colloer bone at the top of your chest. If i work real hard I get a growly giggle out of you, but always get big smiles and wiggles when i poke and prod you there, I love it! You are making loads of new sounds and gurgles and I'm positive that when i motorboat at you you are trying to do it back..hehe You are eating like a little piggy, and I'm sure we will have to start you on some solids pretty soon cuz mild just doesn't seem to be enough sometimes...10 ounces some nights at bedtime seems to be a bit much for a little guy like you, but you drain your bottle and cry for more, so who am I to say you're full? Momma had a bit of a scare with her milk supply for a couple days, my allergies were really bad and I took some meds..without thinking, I took a decongestant one, and oops...I'm a dummy! Did I not know that something that dries up fluids will dry up milk as well? Silly me! But it seems to be ok now, lots of nursing and pumping for 24 hours and some extra supplements, and things seem on their way back to normal. Now, if we could only get you pooping on a regular basis, things would be grand! Still several days go by and you struggle and fuss, I can see you're trying but sometimes you still need some help...I'm gonna ask Sara at your next appointment in a couple weeks, if we can start giving you a little bit of prune juice with your water to help you get regulated.

I also think you're teething! I know I know, you're only 3 and a half months old! But you are drooling and chewing on everything, and sometimes you seem to be so uncomfortable, and when you cry your owie cry it breaks my heart..Tylenol has been your friend on a few rough nights. I hope the shifting that I'm sure is happening, settles down for you soon and that you don't actually cut a tooth for several months! You're too little!! And momma doesn't want you biting her just yet!

You're growing and changing so darn fast, I love every minute, but I still miss my little 5 pound bundle sometimes..*tear* slow down would ya!? There's no hurry for you to grow up. I just wanna love you and snuggle you and let you be a baby for as long as you'll let me let you be..ha..that made sense to me :P

Waiting for you to get up from your nap right now so we can play with your new toy that mummy got you the other day. It's a Fisher Price musical thinger that stands up in front of you in your bouncy chair. You have mastered the art of kicking it to make it sing and light up. You love it and it's so fun to watch!

See you soon little man!

Momma loves you!

Video Monitor

So we got this cool monitor that plugs into the computer..It has a tonne of glitches, the sound from my computer goes through the camera speaker, and there is no volume control that works so it's pretty loud when we have it on, but one thing makes it all worth it : I absolutely love watching you get yourself off to sleep at night..you kick off your blanket, you flail your arms, you look left to right a hundred times, then you slow down and stare at the little blue light on the camera and after a few minutes you close your eyes and relax and drift off to sleep...warms my heart :) It's one of my favourite moments of the day, even though you're in another room and not in my arms, I love it as much as anything else.

Momma loves you!

First Roll Over :)

Yesterday you showed off your stubborn side yet again :) You absolutely hate tummy time, so I have to admit, we don't give you enough of it..I can't stand to leave you there screaming, even though I know it's something you need...so I am vowing to put you on your tummy at least a few times a day, like it or not..sorry buddy! Yesterday tho, I was demonstrating to Uncle Cole how much you hate it, and within 5 seconds of me putting you on your tummy, you kicked and wiggled and popped yourself over onto your back..point proven! We were so surprised and delighted, and I turned you over again to see what would happen and *pop* there you were on your back again! Good job little monkey! It's a milestone! :D Now, if you would go back to napping during the day, we 'd be gold! You are sleeping mostly through the night again so I can't complain...but Come ON! You are so cranky and tired but you refuse to sleep...I'm thinking you have some of my insomnia gene, lol...sleep baby, sleep!

Momma loves you!

nursing strike!

Little man, your momma is STRESSED OUT!! The last couple days you have been fussing when you eat, and this morning it got really bad... You completely refused to latch on and screamed your head off when I tried to feed you. I thought it was because there was no milk, or not enough milk coming.. I took my supplements, drank lots of water, had some mother's milk tea (all this over the course of a couple hours) and then I pumped for a few minutes on each side..the milk is there, I wasn't having any trouble getting it out with the pump. So I guess there is something else going on, I did some research and apparently it isn't abnormal for this to happen at around three months..there are lots of posts from mommies of babies your age saying they have the same problem...but it doesn't make it any less stressful when I know you're hungry but you won't eat.. Finally you latched for a little bit when I tried standing up and holding you to me that way and walking around a little, but I can't maintain that position it hurts too much and it's TIRING! Right now you're in your swing, I thought you were going to take a nap but you woke up..You are fussing a little bit but not screaming like your starving, so I guess you got enough in that little feed to hold you over. It's so tempting to just give you a bottle, but I think that would make this worse and not better :( I hate it when I can't figure out what to do..I hope this passes quickly!

Momma loves you!

3 months!

I can't believe you are 12 weeks old today! You have gotten so big! Right now you are sleeping in your carseat, and have been for the last 2 hours since we walked to the dollar store..something you never would have done a few weeks ago even. You are sleeping well at night, in your crib and without being swaddled...what's happened to my baby!? I can't wait for you to grow and do all the new things that you will do, but at the same time, I miss my newborn little frog boy! Is it silly that I am tearing up while I write this? There are so many things to look forward to, but a big part of me wants to freeze time and keep you little forever! I feel like I don't get to see you enough when you are such a good boy...long naps, good feeds well spaced out, sleeping through the night..I miss you!

Momma loves you!

Just us again.. :(

Your Nana and Uncle Tyler went home yesterday, it was a very sad day for everyone, especially for mummy because she misses them very much. After having some final cuddles before we all headed off to the airport you went next door to spend the evening with your girlfriend, Devin. I think you had a good time with her, but she said you were a little bit scared of her boyfriend Thomas...I think we need to have more men around you so that you are used to them and aren't scared of men. Poor boy, you're always surrounded by women ;) Devin took you for a Wal-Mart nap, I think she wanted to show you off (don't we all) and you went to sleep for her by 9pm. When we got home at around 10:30pm I went to get you and you looked so cute all snuggled up in one of Jordin's rocker chairs. You opened your eyes, looked at me and had a little stretch, and went right back to sleep when I picked you up. I put you in your crib, expecting you to wake up soon hungry, but you slept right through until 4am! Momma was very surprised to wake up and look at the clock and realise you had slept for so long! You slept a couple more hours in your crib after your bottle, then woke up around 7am and we had a lazy snugly morning..you napped and snacked until about 10:30am when you were ready to get up and play. You were a very chatty little man, and we had some great conversations :P I do think you miss your Nana's silly morning play time, but we'll be ok! It's 12:30pm now and you are napping in your swing...now it's time for momma to do the dishes and clean up a little before you wake up again!

Momma Loves YOU!

not a happy camper!

Oh Jayden, why are you so cranky? I think you cried more today than you have ever done in your short little life so far...I feel like I must be missing something for you to be so unhappy :( I love you so much it hurts to think about sometimes, and I don't know what I would do without you. You were awake all day today, other than a couple really short cat naps, and you were sooooo tired! You cried and cried and were inconsolable and it hurt my heart not to be able to make it better. You are eating well, and you pooped today, and you aren't super gassy like some days..so what's wrong my little man? Momma is so tired and cranky too..I'm doing my best not to let you feel that negative energy by not letting myself project it, but it's hard! It's 10pm now and you have had your bath and your bottle and are now sort of dozing in your glider.. I hope you sleep well tonight and feel better in the morning. You're spending the night with Nana tonight, she and Tyler are leaving tomorrow and I'm sad to see them go. It's been great seeing you bond with them, and seeing how much Nana loves you.. I know she is going to be sad to say goodbye, so will I. I wonder how you will be the next few days without all of her cuddles. Every morning since they came you have greeted her with the biggest smiles, you're too young to really know it yet, but you love her to death :) I wish they lived closer so you could see her all the time. Hopefully before you get too big we can go visit them in England! Anyway, I'm gonna go and watch some TV and try to recover from a long day, I hope you can do the same! Please sleep long and well monkey butt, you need your rest!

Momma Loves you! xxxx

A day with Nana :)

Yesterday you had a wonderful day! Mommas went to Canada's Wonderland with Uncle Tyler and Auntie Gabi, and you stayed home with Nana. The two of you had a great time listening to Reggae and dancing all morning! Nana said you love the loud music and were such a good boy for her. It was the first day that you had mostly formula for 12 hours, and I was a little worried about your tummy, I hope today you don't feel yucky from it but last night you seemed great :) Momma had to pump during the day while she was away, and brought home a nice little supply of milk for you for today. You went for a couple nice long walks with Nanna, and spent lots of time outside chilling. You had a visit from Gramma and Marilyn too so you had loads of attention, I think Devin (your girlfriend) even came over for a visit. You were such a good boy for Nana, you slept well during your naps and Nana surprised us by cleaning up the house. That was a nice surprise to come home to!I have to say though, I missed you soooo much being away for so long. When we got home you were sleeping...You went to bed early, at 8pm, and you slept until about 3am! I was so happy to see you and give you a bottle at 3am, I didn't mind at all that you had to wake up in the middle of the night and go a little off your routine because you went back to sleep right away and I had missed you so much I was glad to get up with you! You slept again until 5:30am and Mummy gave you another bottle (you were a hungry boy, my little piggy) and you went back to sleep again! Right now it's 11am, and you're napping..momma had to go out and so you got another bottle..so I'm waiting for you to wake up for a snuggle, I miss you so much!!!

Momma loves you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Busy day

You had a great day today, hanging out with Tyler and Gabi and Nana watching scary movies! You seemed to like the noisiness of it all :)

Later we went over to see Auntie Karen and had a shor swim in the pool. You didn't mind the cold after you got used to it. I think you are going to be a little fish when you get a little bigger!

You're still having some tummy troubles.. I feel so sad when your little belly is rumbling and you can't get any action other than some pretty stinky gas. We've been giving you water and corn syrup with it to help out, but you still aren't having much luck. Every three days or so you get really upset and your tummy goes rock hard, and mummy has to help you out... once you have been sorted out, you seem so relieved, and so are momma and mummy. I hope your body starts to work on its own a little better soon, cuz we don't like having to use the q-tip trick too often..

You slept really well last night, in your crib from 10-4, then woke up for your bottle and went back to sleep in your swing until 6:30am. We had a lazy morning and snuggled in bed until about 10..you were really good and let us have a sleep in, although you gave momma a hard time about feeding in bed cuz you were having some belly issues again and every time you got latched on, you had a gas pain and twisted yourself off..but all in all it was a nice cozy morning. When I brought you out into the living room, you were so happy to see Nana! You gave her the biggest smiles ever and then hung out in the front yard in your bouncy chair for about half an hour. You're gonna miss Nana when she goes home, I hope she comes back to visit soon!

Today we are going to gramma and grampa's for dinner so I'm sure you will get lots of cuddles and come home spoiled and tired :)

Momma loves you!